Saturday, May 6, 2017

Nothing Special

I am a simple country girl
I wish you could have known;
but words mean different things
to you and me
and now the love has gone.
Fearlessly I gave my heart
then and now, still true
but I was nothing special after all,
just a phase of life for you;
so it is what it is,
no changing the past
no games no blame
just  bittersweet acceptance
of dreams that did not last
while memories ebb and flow
this life has taught a lesson
letting go, letting go.

Tuesday, February 28, 2017

Helplessly Romantic Me, Then and Now

Then


Essence of the me
in those exotic, infatuating
days, of courtship,
of being loved and special
to the point of marriage
the most vulnerable of all;
Swept up in (too good to be true)
the desire to be loved
and to love, to connect
to commit, to trust for
one short lifetime.


I accepted  who you were
at the time of our connection;
There was truth there in your eyes
shining through depths
of doubt and despair.
I thought I could love you enough
to make a difference
and I suppose I did in a way,
knowing that In the long run
that my heart would be broken,
that I expected too much
but  I took that risk for you.


Now


I am a wiser, sadder,
different me.




Friday, December 16, 2016

Winter So Far 2016

winter sounds;
dripping faucet
rhythmic, assuring
that water is flowing
and not frozen in place

the crackling of the fire
wood stacked and ready
the stove a faithful friend

I had worried about winter
first one on my own
but I am living it now
each day
full appreciation
for the slow and sweet
sanctuary of solitude

yet and still mourning
for the loss of an ideal
a love, a companionship
ah the self-doubt is at the door
but I am warm inside
life is
what it is

nurturing
the innermost of me
the simple task
of staying warm
stoking the fire

being quiet
reflective
these cold winter nights