Monday, June 13, 2016

You Turned From Me

"Losing a mate to death is devastating but it's not a personal attack like divorce. When somebody you love stops loving you and walks away, it's an insult beyond comparison. –Sue Merrell, Great News Town"

You Turned From Me
a Poem That is a Work in Progress

I’d like to think I was loved by you,
Memories of sweet moments
still gather within me
mingled with adventures we shared
and dreams we built
living  as partners.

Ah, but we have
"moved on" and are
"letting go"
but the pain of our lost connection
ambushes me whenever it pleases;
I am left sitting speechless
at the kitchen table
a hostage to emotions
as you walk away again
seemingly unaffected
and uncaring.

I loved you enough, I know I did;
I’ve been told not to
take rejection personally,
Oh, those words so easily
spoken, nearly impossible
to understand;
And in fact those words
make me angry
because they minimalize
and disrespect
my depth
and how I love.

To be misunderstood, that’s
the hard part. Perhaps
you are not equipped or
have the desire
of the kind of commitment
I need in a relationship;
I hope you take on
your part of this,
but I have to let go
of that too.

Being with you now
is like seeing through a veil
not quite clear
even tho the hurt
is sharp as a shard of glass
That wounds and scars.

Words spoken have
done their deed
actions for example intimacy
with another at my expense
What’s done is done,
no going back;

Trite as it is and was
and will be,
You turned from me.

by SD West

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