You Turned From Me

"Losing a mate to death is devastating but it's not a personal attack like divorce. When somebody you love stops loving you and walks away, it's an insult beyond comparison. –Sue Merrell, Great News Town"

You Turned From Me

a Poem That is a Work in Progress

I’d like to think I was loved by you,

Memories of sweet moments

still gather within me

mingled with adventures we shared

and dreams we built

living  as partners.

Ah, but we have

"moved on" and are

"letting go"

but the pain of our lost connection

ambushes me whenever it pleases;

I am left sitting speechless

at the kitchen table

a hostage to emotions

as you walk away again

seemingly unaffected

and uncaring.

I loved you enough, I know I did;

I’ve been told not to

take rejection personally,

Oh, those words so easily

spoken, nearly impossible

to understand;

And in fact those words

make me angry

because they minimalize

trivialize

and disrespect

my depth

and how I love.

To be misunderstood, that’s

the hard part. Perhaps

you are not equipped or

have the desire

of the kind of commitment

I need in a relationship;

I hope you take on

your part of this,

but I have to let go

of that too.

Being with you now

is like seeing through a veil

not quite clear

even tho the hurt

is sharp as a shard of glass

That wounds and scars.

Words spoken have

done their deed

actions for example intimacy

with another at my expense

What’s done is done,

no going back;

Trite as it is and was

and will be,

You turned from me.


by SD West